What in the hank is contentment anyways? I've been wondering whether I will ever feel that. We are in a world that either is lazy or driven, passive or it's difficult to know when one starts and one stops. I want to be excellent at what I do, but I also know there has to be a boundary set in place to keep you from being OCD and not being able to stop achieving, accomplishing, accumulating. When do you just come to the point where you say, "Enough is enough"...instead of always feeling like "Enough is never enough". When I say, "Enough"...for some reason I feel like I'm settling, quiting. When I say, "I can do more or be more" if feel consumed with my need to grow, expand, stretch, excel, ascend. I know, balance. That cursed word seems to be the answer to all quandries. But for some reason, it doesn't do much to calm my restless spirit.

I want to be the best...and yet I want to be ok with not being the best. I want to know more, and yet I want to be just fine with not knowing everything. I want to be accomplished in my areas of expertise, but I don't want that to be the end all, the finish line, the ultimate priority. I want to influence people, but I don't want to be non-stop in my efforts to meet this person, help that person, attend that event, speak at that conference, set up another early morning coffee or lunch with someone, pencil in another counseling appointment in the evening, write another email, make another phone call, post another blog, create another song, start another ministry...etc. When do you just come to the place where you are content with who you are without becoming complacent?

That's the questions that's been bouncing around in my brain.

I want to be content...and yet I want to press on. (both phrases Paul uttered in his pursuit of God)

I'm all ears...


Amy said…
Let me know when someone gives you an amazing answer to these questions....I've been wondering for awhile now too.
Grafted Branch said…
You asked when you come to that place of contentment?

You're 32, right?

In about 5 years, then. lol.

Just surfing through...someone googled a phrase that brought both our blogs up.

Nice to "meet" you.
Hey bro... I havn't seen you for a while... I know how you feel... maybe not exactly but pretty close. Patsy tells me I am just stubborn... I feel like I can't rest, if I do I will be a failure. And I feel if I don't rest I will meet my end.
I know this stuff doesn't answer your question, but you are not alone. I will do the only thing I know how to do....................................

Your bro in Christ

Chris Nelson
pianoman said…
how in the world do i get the chance to find out there's someone else out there who finds this to be a reality? man, i'm just glad i stop by to read your words of searching, your words of widsom...

i feel in my heart that this just another beautiful aspect of this contradictory life of living as eternal beings in a fragile world...

we live in a constant state of tension between the broken and the victorious, and yet i'm learning to embrace it more every day.

there's beauty in being broken, there's darkness and there's the morning light, and i wouldn't want to have either without the other.

so here's to remaining content in our pursuit of Perfection.

Being married makes it a lot harder, I know that. Being engaged has made it hard for me. How do you follow Paul's instruction, "The time has been shortened, so that from now on those who have wives should be as though they had none, and those who weep, as though they did not weep; and those who rejoice, as though they did not rejoice; and those who buy, as though they did not possess; and those who use the world, as though they did not make full use of it" without destroying our families?

Living in total abandon to God... easier said than done.

Hey, where can I get tabs for your songs? And where can I buy some of the albums they are on?

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