a free will Thursday...

Well, it's Thursday again, my day off from work, my day on at home.

I put up some blinds.
I mowed the backyard.
I took some books back to the library.
I read some new books to the girls at the coffee shop.
I watched some DVR'd poker tournaments.
I took Kami to get fitted for orthodics.
I cleaned the kitchen.
I cooked an amazing lunch...chicken, potatoes, and peas.
I cleaned out the plug in the bathroom sink.
I wrote a couple emails.
I checked out the new Impact Church podcast...we're a part of the 21st Century.

...

I felt lonely for some reason.
I found myself lost in random thoughts.
I can't shake the feeling of fatigue and futility.
I wonder if I'm accomplishing much some days.
I hit these walls sometimes on my days off...it's like slowing down gives me time to think.
I'm just giving myself a chance to be human today...to muse and mourn, think and thank, wonder and wish, rest and wrestle.

I like being human...even if all the emotions aren't to my liking. Free will lets me roam in and out of consciousness quite nicely...